week 28

Here's to those who help me through and try to convince me that I am a better and smarter person than I believe. Samm, Sarah, Spencer, Jordan.
My sister hates when she sees me stressed out and always makes an effort to cheer me up. Whether its struggles with my future, my friends, or just the present life in general she always tries to find a solution to the problem. She always says how I am good at things and that I am crazy for not thinking so myself. Whenever I am upset from others putting me down she will say things to make me realize their opinions don't matter.

Spencer,
I have a lot to say about you. A lot of people look at you as being a weirdo because of just who you hung out with and your appearance. Clearly I could not tell you this because it would bring you down because of what others have said to me. "Why do you hang out with him, he's weird?!" "He's ugly why would you want to be seen with him." This life and just school in general is truly full of cruel people that don't know how to look past others imperfections. " Be with the person who makes your life most beautiful, not with the person that is only beautiful on the outside." That is for both relationships and friends. No one realizes how fun of a person you are and what a caring person you are too. You are always there for me when I decide to be an attention person, so they say, and post something depressing on snap chat to my story saying something dumb like " Life sucks", you always are the first person to message me as soon as you see it and ask me whats wrong even though half the time I don't want you to nor do I tell you what is actually wrong. You always tell me all of the good things about me and how you could see me being more successful than you, You are the type of person that would rather your friends be more happy than your own self which just shows how much you care but really in order for you to make others happy you need to be happy yourself first. Thanks for being such a wonderful person and care for me so much even though I don't do very well at making sure you are alright and staying positive you still look past that.

Sarah,
You are my best friend. You have an open heart and always try to find the good in people no matter the circumstance. You are way too forgiving. When others are doing things they shouldn't and hurting you, you always say that its okay and that they are obviously going through some things. Which I honestly don't think you should let people think its okay to say mean things to you just because their day isn't going ell, but I guess that's what happens when you are overly forgiving. You encourage me to do things that you know in the end will make me happy. You encourage me to go to school, go to the gym, eat healthy, etc. You in the end know what's best for me.  You were always there for me when Jordan would hang out with kids my age so they would always take Jordan's side for everything just to impress Jordan. You would always tell them how wrong they are and how it is none of their business. You made me feel like there was someone actually there for me rather than feeling like I was just a victim. I love you. I will never give up on being your friend despite what others say. You may be younger than me but has nothing to do with how you act. Age does not matter. Even though you are 14 and I'm 17 I still don't see the problem, everyone says stuff about it but I don't see them trying to be a better friend than you. We have went through family issues to where I could never see you again, or so I thought, but that only made me stronger. Thanks for being the bestest friend I could ever have, and I wish I could be a better friend to you than what I am.

Last but not least...
Jordan,
You are my boyfriend, my best friend, my other half. When you are sad I am sad, when you hurt I hurt. You get so mad at me when I am being lazy and have a bad attitude towards things. You always make sure I go where I am supposed to an get done what I should. As for school you don't care how I feel you try to make me go but since you go to school yourself, you are not really around to actually drag me out of the house and take me there. You encourage me to go to work, to work out, but not necessarily eat healthy. I remember when we first got together sometimes I would say mean things about others and you would always tell me that's not nice, even though you were a bully yourself. You changed me. For the better in my opinion, I say less mean things about others, try to find the good, manage to forgive easier, and to drop the friends who use me for my money or just bring me down in general. With art you always tell me how well I do and always show off my art to others. Even though you really do not realize I am not that good compared to others. You tell me I am not fat but I know darn well I am, but if you aren't lying then at least I know through your eyes, you see me as being more perfect than what I ever could be. I don't know what all I could say without it starting to turn into a love letter lmao. I guess just thank you for all of you do, all of the sticking up for me, all of the encouragement, everything. You really are my best friend. No one really realizes how great of a person you are until they actually meet you. You aren't as much of a hard butt as others may think you try to be. There is a sweet side of you that only a few know. My parents, family, friends, they all love you and all see how much of a helper you are. They all know how happy you make me, and I hope that continues. Thanks  once again for being my better half since the half I have isnt quite functional.