week 3

I would not want to read about my future. Even though I am very curious about my future I would just hate to see what happens. Everything I fear about my future is whether me and my boyfriend break up... when my family members may pass away... what this world will even turn into... whether I will make ti anywhere in life, etc. Something I really want to know is whether I get a good job or not and what college I go to the fact I have no idea what I like and what I want to be when I get older. I would want to reread the chapters from when I was younger and maybe even some of the good times that I had while my grandma was alive being my only grandma I ever had. Maybe reread some old chapters about what I used to do with my grandpa. I always remember going fishing and riding on the golf cart. Maybe even back to the day where it was my other grandpas birthday we went to an auction and we surprised him. We drove all the way to Iowa to go to the auction that my grandpa was at and try to find where he was sitting.. then we went and sat next to him and he looks over and says that he has grand daughters that look jut like us then he looks over to his other side an seen my dad sitting next to him. It was a very good day. Or back to the years when my little cousins were still young. Maybe even back to all of the good days when I was single as well as my other friends and we would always hang out with out a worry in the world but now all of us are just always busy hanging with our girlfriends/boyfriends and it really stinks... Another thing I would want to go back to is when my friend Sarah and I would always be together getting into trouble and our parents were friends but now they don't really like each other and at one point for a few years Sarah and i weren't even friends because of the immaturity of our parents. I don't know why I am always stressed out it seems like everything is going right but I just wish that I could go back to the days where everything was awesome. But I guess life is what you make of it. I would like to go back to the day where Jordan and I had got together because that is just a funny story to be told. He had told em the day before that we were going to go to Kroger or something and that he was going to get me flowers and then ask me out... which is just funny cause knowing he was going to ask me out is just awkward and just always makes me laugh when I think about it. That day we get to Kroger and he tells me to come in to pick out my own flowers (lol) and then he asked me to be his girlfriend right there in the parking lot (how romantic,,huh?) and I want to go back to the day where we weren't dating and we went to a movie with all of his friends...it was really funny especially the drive back where Jordan was being a d d and throwing pennies at Steve's truck as we were driving down the road. I don't know I have way too much about my past that I miss and wish I could relive but I don't really like thinking of the past because it just suck thinking about the good days... I would rather live for the moment than try to relive my past.